Friday, August 27, 2010

Bad Blogger!

Forgive me. It's been 31 days since my last blog post officially qualifying me for the title of bad blogger. Clearly, I'm not a natural at this. I'm too fussy, too neurotic, too busy. Unlike many of my fellow bloggers, my first instinct isn’t to write,– it’s to go silent and think. This is me in offline life, as well, so I am not sure that I can change that feature of mine, but I am going to make an effort.

I’ve been thinking these past few weeks why I do not feel driven to blog more often. Most people who do it on a regular basis seem to enjoy it. To me it walks the line between delight and duty. I love the satisfaction that comes after a blog post; I love the afterglow. I just don’t like doing it. I like having blogged better than actual blogging.

Another obvious problem has something to do with time-management skills, or lack thereof as the case may be. This is something that I have struggled with my entire life and in spite of the fact that I recognize this problem, I have never managed to overcome it well enough to incorporate a system into my life that I would actually embrace, much less implement. For whatever reason, I have always functioned far better when I start feeling the pressure of a deadline closing in on me, looming large behind the shadow of a ticking clock. Even when I have days, or even weeks to get something done, I find it much easier to find other things to occupy myself with whilst I put off the inevitable until the very last minute.

As you might be able to tell, I tend to over-think things sometimes.....LOL.

Today I'm restarting my efforts. I'm going to keep my expectations low, but I'm committing to at least one post per week. Walk before you run, right?

How about those of you who are hard-core bloggers? Did you have problems getting started? Do you still have those problems from time to time? How did you find your blogging voice?